open and closed....

eye know you do not see it....  not now....  because you are starting to open up....  too....

but....  when eye came here....  eye was open and you were closed....  

eye am so open....  it scares you sometimes....  eye KNOW that you are scared sometimes....  because eye am SO open....

come on....  you have got to admit it....  when you first met me....  you were shocked by how open eye am....  talking about my therapy appointments....  talking about being bipolar....  when it was taboo....  come on....  tell me you saw it....

when eye came here....  when eye came down to the tennis court....  you were boring....  you talked about the weather....  you talked about what is....  NOT....  what could be....  eye came down to the tennis court....  and started talking it up....  like ya....  

and....  you rejected me....  you abused me....  but eye did not stop....  eye kept trudging away....  on my path....  eye found the path of least resistance....  eye found the ones....  who were the most open....  the most receptive....  eye found the best of you....  and enlisted you....  in my little game....

eye dared you....  eye dared you....  to take the leap....  to open up....  and....  many of you have....  and....  now....  you think....  it was all you....  and eye had NOTHING to do with it....  eye dare you to move....  do you see it yet....  do you see that salvation is here....  do you see it yet....  do you see that eye am your salvation....  yes....  eye AM confident....  extremely confident....  but....  what is wrong with being confident....  right demi....  what is wrong with being confident....

eye WOULD be even more open....  if your fucking world would not have me arrested....  eye would tell you that you are beautiful....  if eye could....  if you would not have me arrested for doing so....  you have not even seen how open eye really am....  if you can believe it....  this world of yours has me shut down....  it has me doing things eye would not usually do....

ask.... ask the last person eye dated....  just how open eye really am....  and....  she did not see all of me....  eye wanted to ask her to take a drive with me....  and just keep driving....  until we wanted to stop....  at a hotel....  and....  get separate rooms....  eye WANTED to show her the real me....  but....  something stopped me....  the fucking rules of this world stopped me....