too MANY potential titles....

this chapter has way too many potential titles....  eye could not decide on one....  

should eye call it....

here to set you free....

or....

eye just want to make you feel beautiful....  you are right....  much too long....

or....

eye do not want you to take me home....  eye AM home....  again....  way too long....

or....

really....  do you really think that my love is your drug....  yes....  again....  way too long....

so....  eye will tell you the story....  and....  why do you not tell me....  what the title of this chapter should be....

so....  today....  eye sat down next to a young beautiful....  girl....  woman....  female species....  and....  eye swear that she was playing the music on my computer....  first....  eye think my angels said to her....  because my angels play my part of the conversation....  not me....  eye think that my angels said to her....  eye want her SO badly....  and....  if the world was ending....  you would come over....  right....  right....  right....  and....  then....  she said....  one last time....  will you let me take you home....  and....  eye said....  on my computer of course....  eye do NOT want you to take me home....  how many times do eye have to tell people....  eye do NOT want anyone to take me home....  eye AM home....  and....  then....  eye think....  eye said....  eye am here to set EVERYONE free....  when eye am done....  letters are going to fall from the sky....  telling everyone to go free....  then....  she said....  your love....  is my drug....  

well....  eye cannot remember what eye said after that....  but....  what eye should have said....  was....  eye ONLY want to set you free....  eye ONLY want to make you feel beautiful....  and....  eye know this will sound obnoxious....  but....  eye ONLY want to fix you....  eye only want to TRY....  to fix you....  to heal your scars....  you showed me your scars....  did eye show you mine....  eye saw your scars....  and...  eye want to help you be even MORE beautiful....  eye want to HELP you heal....  eye AM a healer....  eye have always been a healer....

eye finally found it....  if you cannot read from the same page....  eye must be going crazy....  eye knew that line existed somewhere....  and....  eye FINALLY found it....  

eye also should have told her....  if you are a good girl....  eye am gonna take ya....  because....  that man is NOT your maker....  eye am....  and....  eye am here to liberate ya....

GOD DAMN BRIAN....  you ARE so fucking arrogant....  eye KNOW that is what ALL the guys are saying....  too bad....  eye NEVER claimed to be a mans man....  as a matter a fact....  eye am sure....  that many of you....  are saying....  that man is a faggot....  eye wish he was not an american....  because....  he sure is an idiot....

and....  eye should have said....  eye am ONLY here to set you free....  and....  after that.... after this is all over....   you can decide....  do you STILL think my love is your drug....  do you STILL want to get to know me....  well....  first....  eye am gonna have to meet the parents....  because eye am forty years older than you....  not because eye want their approval....  IF....  you are upright and strong....  the decision is yours.... just cause....  it will help me understand you....  and....  then....  you are going to have to wait....  until eye LOOK the same age as you....  or....  at least....  a respectable age to have dinner with you....  and....  that is going to take awhile....  a long while....  you know what is even more of a drug than my love....  anticipation....  

god damn brian....  eye am such an asshole....