power of now....

so....  when eye made my creation....  when eye made who eye am now....  eye made myself....  so that eye am living in the now....  eye did not have access to the now....  until the moon taught me how to access it....  and....  now....  it is a very powerful tool....

sometimes eye hate living in the now....  and....  sometimes eye fucking love it....

eye hate living in the now....  when eye cannot remember if eye turned the stove off....  or....  when eye cannot remember if eye locked the front door when eye left....  living in the now....  at times....  can look like ocd....  but....  it is different than ocd....  eye can train myself to stop checking the stove and the door....  in a day....  eye do not believe that you can do that....  when you have ocd....

eye love living in the now....  when eye am worried....  when eye am afraid....  because....  eye might be worried one minute....  eye might be afraid one minute....  and....  moments later....  the thought has floated away....  thoughts arrive just like butterflies....  and....  eye simply chase them away....  moments later....  it is how....  someone can say something to scare me....  right before going to bed....  and....  eye can let go of the thought....  within minutes....  so that eye get a good nights sleep....  eye rarely have ruminating thoughts....  my fears do NOT linger on and on....  eye love living in the now....  when this happens....

in one moment....  eye can feel like a weak little boy....  sometimes....  eye feel like a weak little lost child....  and....  days later....  even minutes later....  a heart of steel starts to grow.....  eye might feel much stronger....  eye might feel much older....  and....  eye am ready for more rejection....  which is good....  because....  that is what this wicked game is all about....  my opponents NEVER give me what eye want....  what eye ask for....  in fact....  they go out of their way....  to do quite the opposite of what you want....  with me....  if you do not like what you see....  wait around....  because....  within minutes....  you might just see....  another side of me....