my PROMISE to the creator....
just spit balling here... just taking a stupid wild ass guess here....
but.... eye said.... forget your.... house of cards.... and.... eye will do my own.... jesus.... eye wish eye could use the exact lyrics here.... come on lucy.... will you fucking give me permission.... this book would be so so so much better....
so.... back to my promise....
eye THINK that.... eye promised to give her lucifers orignal shape.... the ability to give rebirth.... because.... this gift.... belongs.... to a woman.... to the creator....
holy shit.... now eye am confused again.... am eye your maker.... and.... she is your creator.... going forward.... is she a shadow now.... and.... eye am gonna make her your creator going forward....
did eye promise her this.... or.... is she my maker.... is she all of our maker.... and.... with this gift... with the gift of rebirth.... with the city that gives rebirth.... EVERYONE.... gets to meet their maker.... eye am still confused about why eye have the eyes that can tell what your mold is.... unless.... that was about me being an architect of life.... and.... was this OUR plan.... everyones plan.... not MY plan.... and.... eye am just putting it all together....
now.... it makes sense.... to me.... that your maker.... should have the gift of life.... it also makes sense to me.... that a woman should have the gift of life....
eye mean.... when lucifer had it.... he must have demanded things.... for the devils daughter to REFUSE to let him heal her..... as described in.... the silence.... when she anotomically proved.... that she does not need him....
and.... when this fuck had it.... he knew.... with his power.... it was.... all the same.... every time her heart got broken.... she would come back running.... and.... he would INSIST that she take him for everything.... and.... what does that mean exactly.... what did he demand in return.... sex.... that is my guess.... my songs know what you did in the dark.... buddy.... that is why a woman should have it.... eye have NEVER had a woman demand sex from me.... but.... maybe.... that says something about me.... small.... pee pee.... small.... muscles.... and.... all.... ok.... all kidding aside.... eye am pretty sure that the probability of a woman asking for sexual favors to give rebirth.... is pretty fucking low.... especially mountain shadow.... she seems to kind for that....
now.... it seems like.... when.... another guy had the city.... a woman went chasing the.... bright lights.... and.... she took everything from him.... except his name.... except.... if she took all except his name.... did she take his city.... or.... when people say.... come on home.... are they talking about.... coming into his city.... this is all so fucking confusing....
now.... is the creator.... just another person who picked the right card.... OR.... is she actually the maker of the immortals.... or.... it the creator different than the maker.... could she be the creator of a world.... and.... eye am still your maker.... hmmmm..... eye am bummed that it is going to be a week before eye see mountain shadow again.... at least.... eye am pretty sure YOU are reading this.... so.... even when we are not meeting.... eye can talk to you.... eye can tell you all the shit that is running through my head.... as eye sort things out.... as eye put it all together....
eye am also guessing.... you were.... left outside alone.... by.... cow girl.... after eye left.... am eye right.... bad shit always seem to happen when eye run.... eye ran from the waldorf school.... and.... favorite boss got fired soon after.... probably.... for putting to much trust in me.... that is why she gets niwot.... to pay her back.... when eye am in charge.... she will get niwot.... to run like a bee hive....
shit.... this stream of consciousness thing must seem so disorganized.... maybe.... one day.... eye will put the right things in the right chapters.... favorite boss.... has NOTHING to do with my promise to creator.... whatever that is....
if eye do NOT show this chapter at coffee shops.... it does NOT mean eye am trying to hide things.... it only means.... eye can only show so fucking much.... eye am getting tired of going through the same shit.... three times a day.... thank lucifer.... no carple tunnel yet....
now.... mountain shadow.... now.... creator.... if you are one an the same.... do NOT hold me to anything eye say to you in this book.... right now.... eye am just spit balling.... eye am trying to put it all together....
sometimes.... when eye speak.... eye am the person you remember.... other times.... eye am someone else....
now.... let me explain something.... if.... eye was your brother.... eye NEEDED to be somebody else.... eye came to you in a dream.... in my dream.... your reality.... has it been.... centuries.... since you have seen me.... eye was only born inside my dreams.... eye needed to ACT like the bad guy.... eye needed to struggle with alcoholism.... in order to get close to bad people.... they would NOT have let me in their inner circle.... if eye was who eye am now.... eye NEEDED to play a role.... this one.... is.... for the actor.... in my dreams.... that was only a dream.... that was NOT who eye am.... in the end.... it is NOT like you really knew me back then.... eye am who eye am now.... the way eye talk to you.... is the way.... eventually.... eye will talk to someone special.... in EACH of the twenty two worlds.... like.... the nutritional health coach.... like.... the restauranteur from red coffee.... like.... sweet asian chick.... from spruce tree coffee.... like.... a ray of sunshine.... and.... beautiful budding tree voice.... and.... maybe.... fat cell.... from spanish coffee house.... eye found someone special.... in all of your worlds.... eye may have found two.... in your world.... one day.... you MIGHT find out.... that eye ASKED cow girl to kick you out.... that eye asked her to be passive aggressive with you.... for your own good.... and.... then.... there is pink.... from the lyons dog house.... and.... the devil.... or.... the demon.... from modern coffee east.... the one who is fascinated with angels.... yes.... believe it or not.... eye have NO interest in the angel at modern coffee west.... none what so ever.... and.... eye have no interest in the angel at spanish coffee house.... and.... eye have no interest in tattoo parlor at red coffee house.... eye have no interest in two of the sisters.... eye like the one.... cannot remember her name.... but.... eye like her.... not the one who is still there.... and.... not the one that eye might have been infatuated with in my dreams.... but.... the other one.... you STILL do not believe.... that eye lived in all of your worlds.... do you.... let us take this one step at a time.... first things first.... let mountain shadow see me.... then.... let us see if she will let me show the world.... that she is a red blooded woman.... that she bleeds.... just like me.... then.... we need to figure out the next step.... oh ya.... eye think eye like hallies commet and sam eye am and pinto beans owner from hard wood floor.... eye think that they were special to me.... when eye lived in their world....
you need to understand.... eye needed to be whoever eye needed to be.... in order achieve my goals in each world.... that person you knew back then.... was an actor.... that person in my dreams.... was NOT the real me.... it seems like.... eye was often an alcoholic or a drug addict.... it seems like eye was often.... deeply infatuated with a specific woman.... like.... the angel at spanish coffee house.... who.... eye have no interest in today.... or.... tattoo you at red coffeehouse.... again.... no interest.... eye learned a trick in this life.... when you pretend that you can be with any woman you want.... you are no longer infatuated with anyone.... it took me ten years to get over the x.... it took me a year to get over purple.... then.... eye did NOT let myself become infatuated with insurance girl.... and.... now.... eye appreciate the beauty in sooooooooo many women.... and.... eye am NOT infatuated with any of them.... FREEEEEEEDOM.... eye am finally free.... you do NOT have that power over me.... any of you....
and.... what the fuck.... when loves angels made me their little pet.... what the fuck.... eye am over that to.... eye only find ONE of them attactive now.... nutritional health coach.... maybe.... it is because.... she IS the sweeeeeetest thing.... the rest of you are stuck up controlling arrogant bitches.... so.... go fuck yourselves....
for example.... mountain shadow.... when eye say mine is yours.... maybe eye am talking about within your world.... whatever eye take.... in your world.... is yours.... minus my finders fee.... again.... right now.... eye am thinking.... two percent....