eye HAVE autism....

eye think that eye have a rare form of autism.... 

the kind....  that has NO filter....  OR....  at least....  not MUCH of one....  eye have had young ladies run from me....  because....  eye gave them too many complements....  eye have been kicked out of two coffee shops....  and.....  told to never return....  

eye will talk to anyone about anything....  well....  that is NOT entirely true....  eye will not talk to a black person....  about the fact that eye think anyone should be able to say nigger....  that....  it there should be NO unspeakable words....  that unspeakable words....  is just another pair of handcuffs....  but....  my point is....  eye will talk to anyone....  about my opinions on the use of the word nigger....  anyone....  except a black person....  because....  eye may be slow....  eye may not have a filter....  eye may not read social cues....  eye may not be afraid of the tough conversation....  but....  eye am not dumb....  eye will not pick a fight with someone....  eye will not talk to someone who is too close to an issue....  eye do not want to get my ass kicked....  so....  eye have some sense....  eye have a bit of a filter....  but....  my filter is unique....  no one has a filter like my filter....  eye am still trying to figure out how it works.....  

the kind....  that makes me do repetative things....  when alone....  at times....  eye will repeat things....  and....  sometimes....  when eye am not thinking about it....  eye will do it in public....  like the time....  in college....  when eye kept singing the words....  red red wine....  over and over and over and over....  until tiny tim told me....  to SHUT THE FUCK UP....  we were in a group....  walking to campus....  and....  as eye often did....  eye fell behind....  and....  started singing to myself....  those were the only words that eye could remember....  so....  eye sang them....  over and over and over....   eye can repeat someones name....  on a walk home....  in a high voice....  over and over and over....  but....  here it the thing....  sometimes....  eye am aware of it....  and....  eye keep doing it anyways....  like eye said....  eye think that eye have a rare FORM of autism....  an autism....  that you have NEVER seen before....  an autism....  that you will never see again....  

sometimes....  eye rock....  in my chair....  back and forth in my chair....  

the kind....  that makes me smile....  when eye have a good thought....  a REALLY big smile....  and....  eye think that eye often look up....  to the right or left....  at the same time....  and....  eye cannot see it....  but....  eye bet it looks a bit creepy....

and....  eye like to THINK that eye am a savant....  an autistic savant....  because....  eye think that eye am a jet fuel genious....  whatever that is....  and....  eye think that eye am clever....  and....  eye think that eye am the middleman....  eye think that eye have an uncanny talent for finding the middle....  of anything....  any topic....  any arguement....  because....  eye am a fine mediator....

now....  here is the kicker....  eye also think that eye have a rare form of multiple personality disorder....  that there are at least four different and unique personalities in me....  a mother....  a father....  a son....  and....  a daughter....  and....  there might be two more....  a grandfather....  and....  a grandmother....  and....  eye think....  that ONLY the boy has autism....  so....  that is the kicker....  my autism might now show....  when the other personalities are out....  however....  right now....  you are primarily....  seeing the boy....  so....  the autism....  is more apparent....  it happens more often than not....  for now....  you are SO lucky....  that the father....  only comes out in my book....  that....  he will turn his cheek....  for the sake of the show....  he will kneel down....  for know....  he will....  know his ground....  know his place....