eye NEED still breathing....

today is....  july twentieth....

today....  eye need....  still breathing....

let us be clear....  eye WANT to die....    do NOT give me one more breath....  

eye need a bad light above me....

eye need blood in my mouth....

eye need a head full of thunder....  eye need my hair stuck red....  

the fear is reaching for my throat....  then it falls to the hollow....  like a stone....

find the pain....  make it run....  

there is a road through the damage....  and....  eye am finding the way....

pain tell stories....

blood tells the truth....

fear makes some noise....

discipline moves....

eye need the old refusal still alive inside....

eye need one clean exit....  and....  a place out of site....

eye need one breath in the dark....  and....  this body is still mine....