why AM eye going out....

eye get this feeling....  the roses are trying to get me to stay at home....

eye have this feeling....  the roses are the ones that had the dogs chase me up the tree....    

and....  eye think....  the keyboardist from chvrches has made it....  into the rose category....  

and...  he told me....  eye dropped the ball today....  by going out....

but....  you see....  eye think that H let him in....  eye think that H let him become a rose....  not....  my mother....  

eye have a feeling....  that the roses want me to kill ALL of the thorns....  that they want me to kill ALL of the pathogens....

and....  so....  you are wondering....  why am eye going out....  

first of all....  who is deciding....  who the thorns are....  and....  who the roses are....  

eye do NOT think it is my mother....  eye do NOT think it is my sister....

and.....

eye do NOT agree....  with who you think are the thorns....  and....  who are the roses....

for instance....  av at alpine modern....  she seems to be indicating ot me....  that she is a thorn....  that she is still in the heat....  WHY....

she SEEMS so sweet to me....  she has a beautiful smile....  evil people do not have beautiful smiles....  

and....

eye think she figured it out....  before the rest of you....  she figured something out about me....  before the rest of you did....

eye told you....  most of the time....  eye look back....  as eye am leaving....  

and....

as eye left alpine modern....  several times....  eye looked back....  and....  she had a big old smile on her face....  and....  she was saying something to someone....  eye do NOT think....  like most of you....  she was happy....  cause eye was going to suffer that night....  no....  eye think....  she was happy....  because....  she....  had figured something out about me....  and....  as eye left....  she was saying to someone....  you see what eye mean....  you see what eye am saying....  so....  WHY....  is she a thorn....  

and....

what about a at rebeccas....  who....  eye think....  was a....  at flatiron coffee....  eye say she is out....  but....  my mohter and my sister are the authority here....  at some point....  they WILL be the authority....  and....  thorns can become roses....  at least....  if eye was designing things....  nothing....  would be set in stone....  the thorns can....  become roses....  and....  a little bit scary....  roses can become thorns....  just like what happened to athena....  and....  eye think....  the thing that might make a rose become a thorn....  is....  based on how a rosse treats a thorn....  if you wish them dead....  instead....  of trying to help them....  well....  you might just become a thorn....  again....  like a....  at rebeccas....  there is no harm in trying to get her into the rose category....  eye know....  eye told you....  we cannot trust her....  but....  my mother might think differently....  eye guess what eye am saying....  is....  act like a....  at red rock....  keep trying....  maybe....  you will get there....  eye just realized.....  my entire conversation today....  was about a's.....  and....  that whas the first time eye have used a hyphen....  but....  that is crazy....  everybody eye talked about today....  was an a.....

ok....  then....  let us break the pattern....  s....  at....  natural grocers....  she seems to think....  she is gonna have to move....  why....  why is she a thorn....  sure....  she is white gods soldier....  sure....  she hit me....  but....  about five years ago....  when eye first met her....  she taught me about beets....  about....  some kind of vegetable....  that contains something....  that can be good....  or....  it can be bad....  and....  ironically....  eye think she came in on her day off....  to tell me....  b-6....  can be good....  and....  it can be bad....  it is a CRITICAL vitamin....  but....  even though it is water soluable....  just like the rest of the b-vitamins....  for some reason....  this one can become toxic....  ya....  eye remember that....  s....  eye pretty much remember any time someone helps me....  and....  how they helped me....  just like e....  at old oak....  who taught me about l-theanine....  eye almost always remember who helped me and how they helped me....  eye do NOT have a photographic memory....  except....  perhaps....  when someone helps me....  because....  that is important to me....  

so....  eye am gonna keep going out....  and....  eye hope....  you will try to help the thorns.....  become roses....  it is NEVER to late....  excpet....  for the true monsters....  the fox....  zeus....  fake love....  the mother who wanted to turn me into a frog....  or a dog....  eye just do not see how some of you can make it....  but....  many of you....  especially....  the soldiers.....  who were just taking orders....  welll....  eye think you all have a chance of making it....

now....  this is the boy talking....  you had better do something nice....  before my father comes home....