hold YOUR horses please....

you told me to watch slow horses....  telling me to slow it down....  right....  and....  eye refused to slow it down....

now....  eye am asking you....  slow your horses....  please.....

eye have NOT chosen a side....

you have to realize....  half of what eye said yesterday....  was out of anger....  eye lumped everone together....  eye was EXTREMELY angry....

eya am gonna tell you....  what eye told jonah today....  

do you know how you can tell....  if someone is full of anger....  full of rage....  they lump everyone together....  just like opalite did....  when she told me....  eye hate ALL men....  but....  there is a difference....  between her and me....  she IS full of anger and rage....  so....  she ALWAYS lumps people together....  what eye am doing .....  is human nature....  when you get angry....  you lump everyone together....  but....  as soon as the anger susides....  you stop lumping people together....   you see the difference....  she is full of anger and rage....  eye was temporarily extemely angry....  in the moment....  

eye have NOT chosen a side....  eye have not chosen the insiders....  eye have not chosen the humans....  

first of all....  eye was speculating yesterday....  eye have no idea....  am eye right....  did s at natural grocers have nothing to do wiith what fake love did to me....  did my psychiatrist have nothing to do with what happened to me....  are half of the soldiers of love....  acting out of fear....  

let me put it this way....  one of zeuses soldiers....  came to me....  and....  said....  eye was just doing what eye was told....  eye was afraid to do anything differntly....  eye was afraid to disobey orders....  even though eye knew they were wrong....  is he guilty....  is he culpable....

eye REALLY would like you to let my sister do this....  why will you NOT let her in my head....  she is SO much better at this....  eye am just messing things up....  just like athena did....  just like all these teams are doing....  eye am only making things worse....  

if eye were you....  eye would stop listening to these teams....  these agents of chaos....  they are TRYING to make things worse.... 

they are in my head....  they KNOW what eye am thinking....  and....  they do anything they can to stop me....  for example....  today....  eye had a question for b at amante....  so....  as eye was thinking of going up and asking him a question....  they had someone come in and sit at the bar....  to talk to him....  so....  either....  eye went without asking him a question....  or.....  eye had to be rude....   and....  interupt their conversation....  eye chose to be rude....   but....  this is what they do....  day in and day out....

listen.... do NOT try to justify your stupid game...  by saying....  all great thoughts come out of turmoil....  that you created this wicked game....  to get better ideas....  BULSHIT....  you created this wicke game....  so that the people in power could KEEP their power.....  plain and simple....  

look....  eye keep losing the good people....  eye lost my favorite psychiatrist....  eye lost my favorite teacher....  eye lost L at violet....  k at luckys market told me she is going home....  while....  the douchebag behind the checkout counter is staying....  eye keep chasing away the people eye want to stay....  

where is my sister....  are you gonna let her in my mind....  ever....

eye have so much more to say....  but....  eye am extremely tired right now....  no real good thoughts coming out of the turnmoil tonight....  eye have no good thoughts when eye am in turmoil....  all eye am is tired and confused.....    so.....  eye call bullshit on that excuse....  

how am eye supposed to judge....  eye have no idea what half of the immortals have or have not done....  eye like k at sprouts....  she is a soldier of love....  eye think....  eye like s and w at natural grocers....  eye have no idea what they have done to me or why....  all eye know is what the songs tell me....  

now eye am really in the firing line tonight....  if is friday night....  the parking lot should be empty....  but....  it is full....  eye think every immortal team has a car out there....  taking shots at me....  

so....  who is this freya beeeeoth....  you see....  this is the oppitimay of what eye am talking about....  she probably is an mmortal....  and....  she probably bought her broth ocmpany....  to make herself LOOK good....  or....  she is pretending it is her company....  or....  even worse....  she stole it from a defenseless human....  she tells me....  she just wants to do good....  bs....  eye am assuming she is the same person.... 

and....  she probably bought her music....  or....  stole it from odins echo....  cause....  her video....  looks totally ai generated....  

she hit me with a storm today....  

ok....  enough about her....  now.... on to the good....

eye gave some of you immortals a disease card....  as eye kind of security blanket....  you are safe....  the humans NEED you....  to heal....  

there ARE a lot of good immortals....  look....  humans....  you feel pain....  you have NO escuse....  when you are a monster....  they cannot feel empahy....  being good is MUCH harder for an immortal than a human....  

now....  eye THINK eye gave the cure to diseases to a bunch of immortals that eye thought were good....   and....  they are going to be able to use the cure....  as leverage....  for their houses....  to negotiate with the humans....  want the cure to candida....  talk to d....  right now....  she is at trader joes....  you REALLY blew it chasing her away....  natural grocers....  you should see if you can get her back part time....  so you have some leverage with the humans....  and....  t at sprouts sold his card....  wtf....  eye should give it to michael....  he seems like the best choice....  what do you think....  ladies....  eye put a bunch of very angry women....  in a world....  with a bunch of good men....  except the clown and his cronies....  obviously....  but....  t and d and m and l and t.....  all seem like very good men to me....  good protectors.....  and....  good men....  eye think eye should give it to michael....  what do you think....  ladies....  he would be MY first choice....  who would yours be....  and...   please....  do not say a lady....  most of you are far to angry right now....  none of you know what true feminine power is yet....  eye think eye gave you a bunch of gentle souls....  in the men....  

and....  l at violet....  if....  she has the diabetes card....  violet has leverage....  wherever she goes....  has leverage....  

and....  e.....  from the underworld....  did you use epilepsy on some one....  eye sure hope not....  because....  eye gave you leverage to negotiate for the underworld....  

and....

chicago....  for the sarandipity gals....  she got mold....  she hit the jackpot....  and....  another sarandipity gal got the lymes disease card....  their house got TWO cards....  why is that....  they do NOT have a house....  so....  there are two ladies that the houses should be going after....  chicago is going to become a TRILLIONAIRE if she so desires....  

and....  now.... this one....  eye do not understand.....  why did eye give opalite exima....  does she have the exima card....  perhaps....  eye think....  all her anger and rage MIGHT be for a reason.....  maybe....  eye think a dude....  hurt her....  BAD.....  and....  if she will let me help her....  if she will show me her anger and pain....  so she can heal....  then....  perhaps....  she would be an excellent choice....  

how about the rest of the houses....  did eye give someone in your house....  a disease card....  better keep them around....  they are your leverage....  with the humans....  

you see....  why do you make such horrific statements in your book....  to bring out all of the scary monsters is why....  you see....  it only hurts....  it only offends someone....  if it is true....  about them....  it only hurts if it is true....  so....  eye do it....  to suck them out....  to get them to come hit me....  to INCRIMINATE themselves....  plain ans simple as that....  all women are NOT scary monsters....  but.... pretty sure....  all the women who come out to hit me....  ARE.....  scary monsters....  better me....  than you....  better for them to come after me....  than to come after all of you....  right....